Since the beginning of this semestr ,I could not find myself powerful take important steps about my planings.I don’t know why but if I wouldnt be able to get over this thing,next 3-4 months will be a shame for me .
People without a target for their life can spend their time like I am doing previous 7-10 days.But I have an aim actually aims.So how can I be so lukewarm to my aims ,planings ,targets etc..Maybe ,it seems like ,origin of my problem is lack of enthusiasm.I don’t even have enthusiasm for the things about the solarcar team that I am one of the members.
I think one of the reasons of this enthusiam deficiency based on my previous year which is full of RUSH.After final examinations of Autumn Term ,I began to feel free
,no more examinations, no more races and no more projects for the near future..
I think another reason for this situation is not having a holiday,not knowing what “holiday” means..Yes I dont know how to have a good time and how to relieve after all the things I lived in 2009.Yes the weather conditions are not very suitable for an holiday but this winter holiday is just like sitting in front of my laptop and trying to learn programming language for me.Maybe struggling with codes relieved me a bit but not at all ..
I feel like ,we are still at first semester .Nothing has changed,I came back to my home at Sakarya and living exactly the same .Go to Classes,come back ,eat dinner,write codes,sleep ,go to class………..
Same same same what a shame
By the way ,I still couldnt believe that we participated in World Solar Challenge and come back to Turkey,It was like a dream,but still I feel as if I did not participate in that event.But I also couldnt feel excited like I feel before the race.
STRANGE..
What else ,It is the right time for me to get my ideas into a shape,otherwise I’ll really be a looser..
Hope to recover my enthusiasm and excitement again…
Ciaoooooo….
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